12/27/11 -A Broken Heart

12/27/11.
To most this is just a date. To most this is just one day in 1,000 others. To most this day didn't matter.
To me this is the day I cried in anger. In pain. In hate. In sadness. In brokenness.
12/27/11. Will forever be on the minds of those in Englewood. It is now etched into our minds for eternity.
12/27/11 is the day we lost loved ones in a shooting at Church's Chicken.
My heart broke when I got the phone call that Jawan was killed.
I've never fallen to the floor the way I did when I heard his name.
In all my time at the Ministry I have never had someone die that I knew personally. I guess there's a first for everything?
I prayed that no one else got killed. And later found out that Pee Wee was shot. But would be ok.
I know I say my heart breaks for these kids and families alot. But God has given me a heart for these people. For this place. And I will never forget these people.
In the end 7 were shot. 2 were dead. We knew all of them.
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The next day me && My dad went to go see Pee Wee & to visit Jawan's family.
I get to Pee Wee's house and talk for a minute then two girls seem to find they're way to me.
I get asked many questions: "Why are your eyes that color?" "Whats your name?" "How many brothers and sisters do you have?" "Whats your favorite Color?"
After that I get many compliments: "You're Pretty!" "I like your coat" "You have pretty hair"
I answer all the questions and give them compliments back.
Then later I tell Pee Wee's little sister that soon I am going to make Pee Wee my brother but he doesn't know it yet. She decided that meant we were sisters! So I am slowly adding on to my list of family :)
But made my year was when I was leaving the house I said goodbye to the girls when Pee Wee's little sister (7 years old) gives me a hug and says "I love you so much, you are my first sister, and you are my favorite sister. I just love you so much"
Next his cousin comes and gives me a hug and says: "I will always love you!"
...And there goes my heart again.
This will forever be etched into my mind. That even though there brother/cousin just got shot and could've died they are still happier then I will ever be. They still love more then I will ever love.
I pray that I will learn from situations like this how to be more like these little girls who hold so much love in their hearts just waiting to give it out to whoever decided they need some.